11/25/08 – 9:30am (i wanna make music, i really do…)

…but;

i’m running out of FREE time to do that.

Ted and I have been pumping out songs left and right, finishing up the Aleister Christ Project, trying to complete the Hatman Soundtrack for the ‘maybe’ movie one day. Trying to recover from the faliure of our GEARBALL album, getting screwed on my solo album release: BIGSPIRIT by Some Bizzare Records, fighting with my$pace over censorship issues, deciding to move to VIRB.COM and nothing comming of it… all these things plus all our ‘personal’ life issues has begun to weigh a bit much on us. we seem to have alot of so-called friends here on my$pace but it seems most of them are artists trying to do what we were doing: ‘friend requesting’ as a means of networking and trying to promote our music. after a year + we’ve come to see that we really only have a handful of REAL fans here. what i’m getting at is that (I can’t speak for Ted) …but for me, i need to take a break. and i don’t know how long this break is gonna be. I’m 31 years old and trying to stay clean and sober and recover from all the damn moving to and fro and lose that has occured in my life. It’s sadly getting to that awful realization that my music is nothing more than a hobby that only keeps me down in the mud even more. It’s not making any money and I work at fucking McDonald’s. It’s becomming a silly young boy’s dream. My friends have told me in the past, “you didn’t start making music to make money…” yeah i know. but I was a free spirit back then. Now I’m an ADULT. and part of growing up is sometimes you have to admit when a dream has failed to manifest in the way you wanted/needed it to. and then you have to be man enough to ‘move on.’ I’m not saying that i’m not making music anymore. I’m saying that Ted and I together have 300+ songs if not more. and they are just sitting in our harddrives collecting negative ions. So when and if i begin to make music again one day aside from the occasional weekend hour or so with Ted, it’s got to be landing it’s ass on an album thats going to be appearing at your local Tower Records, or I’m not doing it. so, if you are a fan and actually like my crazy shit then help my broke ass out and buy my DRUNK&BASE album or Ted and I’s ACP ablum. one’s 5$ and the other is 8$, not much, but if half the friends i supposedly have here on my$pace bought one i’d be doing rather well.  and that would give me some hope. and the money would more than likely BUY me some time to do more. sorry folks, seems we’re aproaching the end of an era here. but thats life right? best of luck to the rest of you. namaste.

-rev.spook of GL1TCHG0R3